I’m Frustrated, I Need To Be Heard

Posted in Love, relationships with tags , on November 16, 2013 by CaliRed

CaliRed:

It is frustrating, writing helps a lot in the situation. It’s funny in a way, I mean I was 42 before I really dated anyone, and in my 20′s when I went out on my first date.

All of this angst should have been stuff I went through in High School but I didn’t. So now I’m stuck and trying to communicate and doing a really awful job of it.

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I feel a little better about things tonight. I now know that my guy is really busy doing things for other people. It’s not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but at least I know there is a reason of sorts instead of just thinking I’ve been dumped.

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There are some things I remember so vividly about doing things with him, like they happened yesterday.
I remember traveling around Hesperia and San Bernardino and just looking at the Mojave River, old golf courses, homes in the area. I remember where a driver wrecked his car and how it took them days to find him. I remember a trip to Silverlake and just looking out over the lake from above. I remember

Originally posted on Calired's Blog:

It’s pretty damned hard to find love for the first time when you’re 42, but I did it, I really did.

That was five years ago and there have been plenty of ups and downs, too many to count, and mainly my fault.

Lately I’ve been accused of doing things that I haven’t done, taking actions that I never took, saying things to people that I’ve never said.

The worst part is that he won’t listen. It doesn’t mean that I love him any less, as a matter of fact I live him all the more.

I will not give up, I will not go away.
I love him, that is the way it is

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I’m Frustrated, I Need To Be Heard

Posted in Uncategorized on November 6, 2013 by CaliRed

It’s pretty damned hard to find love for the first time when you’re 42, but I did it, I really did.

That was five years ago and there have been plenty of ups and downs, too many to count, and mainly my fault.

Lately I’ve been accused of doing things that I haven’t done, taking actions that I never took, saying things to people that I’ve never said.

The worst part is that he won’t listen. It doesn’t mean that I love him any less, as a matter of fact I live him all the more.

I will not give up, I will not go away.
I love him, that is the way it is

Letter to USAToday Newspaper 3/19/2013

Posted in Politics with tags , , on October 31, 2013 by CaliRed

I am of the opinion that if you are elected to Public office you should vote the way the majority of your constituents wish you to vote, not in such a manner as to support a family member.

Shame on Senator Portman for betraying his constituents.

Thoughts on a plane

Posted in relationships with tags on April 19, 2013 by CaliRed

Just sayin’ on the plane

There are a million things I think if when flying,
mainly because I’m being held hostage by airlines and airports
until my travel has ended.

I really wanted to reach out and grab your hand,
just to have that connection,
to know that this weekend had been real.
In the end , as always, I let it go.

This was written after spending a long weekend with a man I absolutely adore

A week of attempting songwriting

Posted in Music with tags , , on April 19, 2013 by CaliRed

Songwriting

+Tuesday
Write a song with the word “fences”

I’ve been riding all day
Not a soul to be seen
All along the whole way
Alone not a team

I’ll be happy for sure
To see the home fences
Nothing else will ensure
That I’ve come to my senses

+Wednesday
Rhyme scheme AABB

The season has just begun
Once again we are on the run
There’s layers of ice everywhere
Go out if you must, if you dare

Beware the danger that lurks
Have at the ready your pikes and your dirks
With them the walls will come down
Then you’ll know you do own the town

+Thursday
Master my emotions (use phrase)

I’m doing all I can
To master my emotions
Not your usual devotions
I don’t know where I began
Maybe from the band

My NASCAR Journey

Posted in Auto Club Speedway, California Speedway, NASCAR, Racing, Richard Petty, Ron Hornaday, Sprint Cup with tags , , on December 19, 2012 by CaliRed

All I can say is that this will be an ongoing post until I get things written down. Sounds like a Blog right? Lol

My earliest memories, way back in the early 70′s were of such icons as Richard Petty and Cale Yarborough. My father would watch the races and of course my Brother and I were fascinated by them. I learned names like Allison, Parsons, Baker, Gordon, Pearson, Childress, and Waltrip. The late 70′s saw us going to our local Saugus Speedway to see people like Ron Hornaday race.

The 80′s brought more televised races, the death of my Father, and real NASCAR racing to Saugus Speedway. It was also the era of the Local Street Races, very much illegal but very well attended. Who could forget Glenoaks and Peoria, or San Fernando Road at Roxford?

The 90′s saw the demise of the Saugus Speedway, stupid County of Los Angeles Red-tagged the Grandstands and the track was closed. This happened after we saw racers like Ken Schrader, Geoff Bodine, and Ron Hornaday in the NASCAR Craftsman Truck Series. In 1997 the track at Fontana, the California Speedway opened for it’s first race. Of course it is now the Auto Club Speedway. I missed the opening event, but was at the second race at the track. What a difference from Saugus Speedway and the Streetraces.

Once we hit the 21st Century I really started to get back into NASCAR.

Renewable Energy, Exploration, what to do

Posted in Blogs, Energy, Opinion, The Telegraph with tags , , , , on October 14, 2011 by CaliRed

You have to wonder what people are thinking. I mean it’s all fine and dandy to research and begin to implement renewable energy resources,but not at the expense of those we already have explored, are exploring, and/or have in place.  Think about it, we already have powerplants, drilling rigs, exploration in progress, but the so-called ‘Green’ movement would have you stop all of that an immediately go solar, turn to wind power, or use only green energy.  These all take years to put in place on a wide scale, in the meantime what are you supposed to do?

Look at what’s happening in Europe today, http://blogs.telegraph.co.uk/news/jamesdelingpole/100110904/chicken-little-jumps-the-shark/, it’s happening all over, a huge movement, but at what cost?

“The Government faces demands to tear up or delay plans to force through a £200billion shift to wind turbines, wave power and new nuclear power stations.

Energy industry analyst Martin Brough, of Deutsche Bank, warned that a quarter of households could be driven into fuel poverty by 2015.”

That’s just one example of how crazy things are getting.  I’m not opposed to ‘Green’ energy mind you, but it has to be implemented after it is proven effective, not on a whim.

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